Life Goes On
Life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye 'cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
And this feelin that
I can't go back
Prologue
Break-ups are always hard. Especially when only one heart gets broken. When youre in love you always think that it will last forever, and you always want it too. You think that you're "in it" together. You never think that your girlfriend or boyfriend is deceitful or even a liar, because they just always seem so loyal, sincere, and honest, its hard not to believe anything they say.
Even if you think life is over and you can't or don't want to go on...life goes on anyways. There's always going to be a better and brighter day waiting for you to capture it. And even if you think you'll never love again, you will.
This is MY story. It is about my first love. Jenna Walker. She was my life, my heart, and my soul. She was everything to me. I loved that woman more than I could ever imagine, more than life itself. Love, lust, lies and deceit. This is MY story.
Chapter One
I love my life...I thought as my group 'O-Town' finished performing our hit single 'All or Nothing' on stage. Perfect girlfriend, perfect career, perfect friends. Life is good. "Thank you Detroit and goodnight!" We all cheered to the audience as we exited the stage. "That was a good show." Trevor Pennick announced as we entered our dressing room to shower and have a quick change. "Yeah I agree." I said as I grabbed some clothes to throw on quickly. "I'm going to take a shower on the bus." I said to the guys as our tour manager Anthony walked in. "Good news yall, starting Monday, you guys will have until January 10 off." "No way, we havent had that long off in...Damn I dont know how long, before we joined the band?" Erik Estrada exclaimed. "Well, its not until Monday, so here's the schedule for the next couple of days...." Anthony said trailing off...I spaced out into 'Ashley's World' as everyone called it just daydreaming of me being alone with my love, Jenna.
About 2:30 the next morning I arrived at Orlando. My best friend, David picked me up from the airport because Jenna had to work and she couldn't get off. "Hey Ash!" David replied hugging me, but in a manly way of course. I laughed. "Hey David, hows it going?" I haven't seen David in almost 6 months. We both tried out for Making the Band, I made the final 8, and he made the final 25 and then he decided to stay in Orlando to support me and my dream. He always said the right man got picked, and if anyone worked hard, it was me. He's my major support, besides my mom. He's also the closest thing I have to California since I'm not going there for my break; I wanted to spend it with Jenna. "So Ash, you are you heading back out for the road?" David asked me as he helped me put my things in the trunk of his car. "We have about a month off. We go back January 10th." I replied as we got into his silver Lexus. "That's awesome, now you'll be able to see my art show!" David replied happily. David always said that if he couldn't be a performing artist, he would like to be an actual ARTIST. He's a painter, and he does some beautiful stuff. "There's going to be some big wigs there and if they like what they see their going to buy some stuff and maybe put it in there galleries." David added. "Really? Is your art show going to be held at UCF?" I asked. "Yes, its at 2:00pm the 5th in the auditorium, you better be there. I have to go at 12." David said as he made another left onto my road. "I will!" I replied. "So, you wanna hang out tonight?" David asked. "I cant man, I promised Jenna that it would be just me and her. Sorry." I said as we pulled into my driveway. "Oh...ok. Its cool. I'll call you tomorrow." David said with a smile. "Alright man, later." I said as I got out and I grabbed my things and we slapped hands. I walked up to my house and I unlocked the door. I put my stuff down and I went to check my messages. I had about 20, so I listened and erased them because they were all crap.
I picked up my bags and I headed up to my room just as my phone rang....
